Sometimes Love Jus Ain't Enough

Have I ever told anyone that some songs just struck me whenever I met some difficult choices in life?

This song depicts best of my feelings these days...

Sometimes Love Jus Ain't Enough - By Sun Yan Tze

i don't wanna lose you,
but i don't wanna use you
just to have somebody by my side.
and i don't wanna hate you,
i don't wanna take you,
but i don't wanna be the one to cry.
and that don't really matter
to anyone anymore.
but like a fool i keep losing my place
and i keep seeing you walk through that door.

but there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
there's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

now, i could never change you,
i don't wanna blame you.
baby, you don't have to take the fall.
yes, i may have hurt you,
but i did not desert you.
maybe i just wanna have it all.
it makes a sound like thunder,
it makes me feel like rain.
and like a fool who will never see the truth,
i keep thinking something's gonna change.
and there's no way home, when it's late at night and you're all alone.
are there things that you wanted to say?
do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where i used to lay?

and there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
there's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.
baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough. oh...

My 24th Bday!

Thanks for all the gifts my dear friends! :D

Firstly, I wanna thanks my sweet colleagues, Ain, Ying Er and Norman for buying the adorable cupcakes with my name on it and celebrating for me early in the morning when I reach office.

Thanks Jaslyn for organizing the gathering at Minds Cafe, Boat Quay. Been a long while since I indulge in boardgames so crazily haha! Like Jenga and Cluedo! and of course, I super love the pink shoulder bag you'd chosen for me! one look at it i knew it's you who pick it! haha!

Thanks Sean for calling to ask me what I want for my Bday but my dear alliance... i hope you'll one day understands the real meaning behind when giving anyone a gift... cos most of the time the value of the gift goes beyond the numeric price written on the tag. :)

Thanks Regie for the Rose and for rushing down after your friend's wedding dinner! Knew you won't miss it! hehe :D

Thanks Chris and Jo for the T-shirt. Cute piggy image.

Thanks Bro and Flo for the sky blue scarf.

Thanks to my polymates, Ferbie, Siow Hwee and one of my bestest fren in life, Zhen for the Loccintaine handcream but sorry i went to change for the Cherry Blossom Eau De Toilette instead cos am abit sensitive to that handcream hee *winks*

Thanks Candy for the lunch over Sunday... had such a good time with you even if it's just chatting. You never fail to share my woes and give me good advices. Thanks.

Had quite a no. of surprises this year too... received a call, a sms and a bday card from 3 persons totally unexpected! BUT was definitely a very pleasant surprise!

Thanks Luc for that bday song over telephone. The thought of remembering it is already one of the best gift I'd received, cos I don't think I've ever revealed bday date to you before haha! It's been more than one year we last met, nonetheless am glad we still kept in contacts via msn/sms.

Thanks Felix for the bday sms! Guess who is Felix here! hahaha it's Chris' third broie - Mr Bird Tong Chai muahahhaha! What a surprise my gosh! Literally drop my specs when I saw the sms bcos we ain't exactly close haha! He gotta noe my bday from either Chris/Jo i guess and had bothered to get my no. and sms me... thanks for the thots dude!

Thanks Qing Yi for your lovely bday card all the way from States! Miss you so much and felt so happy for you that you gotta travel out to see the world out there! Cherish your one year training in States and before you knew it... you'll be back to Sg ler. haha

Also, I wanna give Special Thanks to the following people who make a mark in my heart...

Special Thanks to my family... for coming together and organize a steamboat dinner at home with everybody. A simple dinner... just my own family members... cosy and sweet. Though I may not have mention it before... but I'm always very grateful to have them around. Even if I dun share my prbs with them cos I never want them to worry... jus having their presence keeps me going cos I know they'll be there for me... no matter what happens.

Special Thanks to my soul-mate, Qing Wen. Am sooo surprised with your lavender roses and digital photo frame imported from UK with our photographs since poly school days... one of the happiest phase in my life. I couldn't ask for anything more cos the thought alone speaks louder than anything else. You are forever so sweet and thanks so much... for always standing by and being a good listener ear... whenever I need. Also, I enjoyed our Hokkaido dinner and the crappy movie that evening haha!

Also thanks to puffies and stalker for arranging the batam trip tmr... am sure gonna enjoy it! can't wait to jump into the pool and indulge in our 3-hrs spa! wohoo! haha

Last but not least, thanks to all who remembers....

Sharon

Cynthia

Angie

Yawen

Chai Hoon

Dunxiang

Alex

Chiang Hiang

Kelly

Hwee Ling

Kim Ting

Finally 24 years old now... had more things to worry... more things to think about... more responsibilities ler. Despite everything be the good and bad, I'm glad for everything that had happened... and if I've to choose, I would have taken the same route. Without these chapters in life, I wouldn't have become stronger. One thing I always praise the Lord is... for giving me a bunch of very good friends whom I know for sure and for life that will stand by no matter what happens. Cos they have already proven this point during my very down and weak moments these couple of years. Thanks.

Looking back and having experienced what I've gone through... I've finally given myself the best gift by being able to "Let go". May sound silly to some but it's definitely not an easy task to me. Emotional struggles is the greatest huddle. But I knew only when I'm able to do that, I've then grown up. It's about fighting within yourself.

Like I don't regret for the good & bad chapters that had happened in my life... I will never regret this decision that I've made either, no matter what the future holds.

Genting 2008